If you've been following the Facebook page, early on in the month of June when Mercury Retrograde began, you may remember me complaining about the electronics going down. It was bad. It was real bad. Daily there were issues, printer down, Microsoft Word down, documents lost and trying to be recovered. Windows down. Facebook down. It was brutal just trying to prepare for classes or get anything done. Retrograde always seems to interrupt the good flow we have with our technology.
This was just the beginning however, of a REtrograde to make the record books. Things began to surface in every area of my life for REevaluation. Mis-communications exploded into REactive situations. Issues I thought were put to rest REsurfaced in typical retrograde fashion. Retrograde is all about the RE.
Lots of changes began to take place. Lots of REdoing, REstructuring. REorganizing. Some change I eagerly embraced. Some I needed time to digest and process. Some I outright resisted.
And then the Drama hit. In the true spirit of the 4th of July, the last days of retrograde, it was a full week of climactic fireworks. Retrograde just had to go out with a bang. And boy was it a doozie. My first reaction was I don't "DO" Drama! But I figured I should play along since I co-created the script and see what I had in store for myself. It was a perfect storm of chaos. And it was spectacular. A true series of devastating "Tower"events. The kind that rip the rug out from under you when you least expect it. But plans are dashed for a reason and there are always blessings in disguise when the dust settles. Once you clear the rubble, you will find a clean slate awaiting your artistry.
My physical body also took a hit due to the tumultuous emotions being brought to the surface for clearing. Almost immediately I RE-injured a part of the body that was already weakened but healing. I thought about the meaning and messages of it, the area of the body I was feeling this tremendous pain and why did I need this injury? Many answers came as I soaked for a long time in the healing salt bath.
But the beauty. I am in awe of the beauty of it, even the painful parts. The delicate intricacy of the design of the web of synchronistic events, converging into a masterpiece like a symphony, is truly something to behold. Nothing is about what it appears to be on the surface. The layers are infinite. The karma that is being balanced or created. The lessons that are being learned - or not. The soul contracts that are being fulfilled by all the participants of the screen play. The decisions that would alter the path of fate and destiny, The paths that would have come off of those paths had different choices been made. And are we playing out all of those variances of choices for learning in another reality or dimension? The emotions that well up with in us and alter those decisions. The words we say which change outcomes whether we know it or not. The words we don't say. The shifting vibrations of resistance or acceptance. The circumstances of environment. The X factors of Free Will that can't be accounted for . Our Divine Life Purpose. The Collective Consciousness. The past life connections and roles we've played out with one another echoing in reverberation, creating kaleidoscopes of patterns upon the current dramas. The triggers happening for us to release that inside which we no longer need. All of these things play a part in the unfolding of a perfect drama and must be taken into consideration when looking for clarity. One thing I know to be true: There are no coincidences.
The other thing I know to be true: Love never fails.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. -1 Corinthians 13:4-8
We always have choices of how we will react in any given drama. We can go into fear. We can lash out. We can defend and fight. Or we can move into Love.
When we sit in the Lotus of Love, everything else melts away. We breathe in Love for ourselves. We breathe out Love for every living Being. We feel the Love filling our bodies, filling our minds, our hearts, our Souls, our aura, until we are only emitting the frequency of Love. Sending extra Love to the areas of pain in the body, talking to them, giving them acknowledgement, Love and appreciation. Love heals all wounds.
We also must forgive ourselves. We are perfectly imperfect in a profoundly beautiful way. We are just here at Earth school for learning. And no matter how we think we did on the test - aced - passed - failed - it was not about the grade at all but the experience as a whole and the gifts it brings. It is always a gift of growth, always. That's why we write these dramas in the first place.
We should also forgive and send Love to those we feel have hurt us. It will only be toxic to hold those feelings in our body temples and we will suffer greatly for it, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. If we can take it to the higher perspective of the Angels, we can see that there is nothing to forgive. There is only Love and challenges for learning purposes. When we lash out and hurt others we are only lashing out and hurting ourselves because we are one. I am you and you are me. Just a different aspect of, like the facet of a diamond.
There is nothing like Love and Gratitude to dissipate the charge and energy of a drama. A very wise and dear confidant also told me to view it as if it were an ant hill, like it doesn't matter. Just step over it and move on, she said. She also suggested I put the whole situation in a shoe box and give it to my protector, Archangel Michael. I sent him away with it to be brought to heaven and transmuted to Love.
As I meditated in the Love and sank deep into it, I began to hear a crystal singing bowl, clear as day, as if it were playing right in front of me. It reverberated through my body, spreading and penetrating the Love even deeper, into every cell of my being. Tears of joy came to my eyes. With eyes closed, swirling emerald green colors began to appear before me, then mixed with some blue as the crystal bowl tones began to change to several different notes. Fear, anger and other lower vibrational feelings began to leave my body at different exit points. Some from the wounded area, some from other places in the body where it was being stored. I wanted to stay in that vibration forever but eventually after quite some time, the colors faded and the tones were gone a while after that. I felt lighter and uplifted as I felt all my Angels and Guides gathered around me, infusing me with healing and rainbow Light.
I prayed to be sent what I needed and sure enough, it showed up the very next day in multiple forms. I laughed about the situation, rendering it powerless over me. Even my injury finally began to feel as though it was healing. This too shall pass. I felt joyful and positive as I could feel myself moving back into the flow of Divine Spirit. I give thanks for my lessons and teachers, in all their forms and simply ask that I move through the learning with ease and Grace. And with much Love. Love never fails.
Love & Light,